Ang sarap magblog kapag okay ka. In and out. Nakakamiss yun. :(

After niyang iparealize at ipaalam sa akin lahat ng gusto niyang sabihin, yan ang sinabi niya sa dulo. Nagsosorry siya dahil nasaktan niya ako. Tao lang ako, masakit yang sinasabi mo kaya nasasaktan ako. At ngayon nagsosorry ka. Pag tinanggap ko yan, feeling ko nagpapakabulag na ako sa pag-ibig. At pag tinanggap ko yan, dapat handa ako masaktan ulit. 

Gusto ko makalimot, apat na buwan din ako nagpaloko dun. Sayang lahat ng panahon na ginugol ko sa kanya wala rin akong napala. So ngayong wala mga kaibigan ko sa tabi ko, hindi ko na alam ang gagawin ko. 

Right from the start
You were a thief
You stole my heart
And I your willing victim
I let you see the parts of me
That weren’t all that pretty
And with every touch you fixed them

Now you’ve been talking in your sleep, oh, oh
Things you never say to me, oh, oh
Tell me that you’ve had enough
Of our love, our love

Just give me a reason
Just a little bit’s enough
Just a second we’re not broken just bent
And we can learn to love again
It’s in the stars
It’s been written in the scars on our hearts
We’re not broken just bent
And we can learn to love again

I’m sorry I don’t understand
Where all of this is coming from
I thought that we were fine
(Oh, we had everything)
Your head is running wild again
My dear we still have everythin’
And it’s all in your mind
(Yeah, but this is happenin’)

You’ve been havin’ real bad dreams, oh, oh
You used to lie so close to me, oh, oh
There’s nothing more than empty sheets
Between our love, our love
Oh, our love, our love

Just give me a reason
Just a little bit’s enough
Just a second we’re not broken just bent
And we can learn to love again
I never stopped
You’re still written in the scars on my heart
You’re not broken just bent
And we can learn to love again

Oh, tear ducts and rust
I’ll fix it for us
We’re collecting dust
But our love’s enough
You’re holding it in
You’re pouring a drink
No nothing is as bad as it seems
We’ll come clean

Just give me a reason
Just a little bit’s enough
Just a second we’re not broken just bent
And we can learn to love again
It’s in the stars
It’s been written in the scars on our hearts
That we’re not broken just bent
And we can learn to love again

Just give me a reason
Just a little bit’s enough
Just a second we’re not broken just bent
And we can learn to love again
It’s in the stars
It’s been written in the scars on our hearts
That we’re not broken just bent
And we can learn to love again

Oh, we can learn to love again
Oh, we can learn to love again
Oh, oh, that we’re not broken just bent
And we can learn to love again

Mali ba talagang umasa akong magiging kami kahit nagpapakita siya ng motibo?

Yun lang siguro weakness ko ngayon.

Mawala lahat ng minamahal ko.

Busy na siya lagi. Paano na ako? 

• Siya: Hindi pa ako uuwi bukas.
• Ako: *laslas na*

Nasira lahat ng phone ko.

Gusto kung umiyak kay Mama, hinang hina na ako sa mga nangyayari sa akin.

Grabe, ngayon lang ako lumungkot ng ganito. Ang hirap para sa akin yung unti-unti siyang nawawala. Gagawa pa kami ng memories sabi namin sa isa’t isa pero pag nandyan na, siya tong lumalayo. Hindi man niya ipakita, nararamdaman ko naman. Naguguluhan ako, umiiyak na ako sa harap ng classmates ko kahit di nila alam ang mga nangyayari. Iyak, tahan, sakit ng dibdib, stress, yan lahat nangyayari sa akin. JS PROM bukas, at anong gagawin ko? Dami naming plano, may bow tie pa, may sayaw pa, may kwentuhan pa, may photobooth pa, pero dahil sa mga pinaparamdam at ginagawa niya, malabo na ito para bukas.

Sabi nila, i-enjoy ko na lang kasi last prom na namin pero kahit anong gawin ko, hindi ko ata maeenjoy at madadala ang suot ko. Guys tulong, emotionally, physically, mentally depressed na ako. :/

ONLINE CHECK.

Tagal na ng unang pakiramdam kong ganito. Alam mong ganito ung kahinaan ko pero paulit ulit mong hinahayaan at ginagawa. Nag set ka sa mind mo na wag muna pero na fall ka ulit eh. Ngayong, kaibigan mo na siya tsaka lang naglalabasan lahat ng di mo na lang dapat malaman. Masakit na parang pinapatay ka ng paonti unti. Na kahit anong gawin mo, lalambot pa rin puso kasi gusto mo siya. Kumbaga wala kang ligtas sa kanya. At hindi mo na ma classify kung sino talaga ang nagmamahal sa inyo ng tunay.

Ang sakit ng text ng crush ko sa akin.  Okay, magaadjust ako, ayoko na rin siya pansinin bukas. :/